Well it’s officially the year of our Lord, two thousand and nineteen. I rung in the new year on a rooftop in, surprise surprise, Dallas, Texas. I know. I’m as shocked as you are. It was simple but nice and honestly probably one of my favorite New Years. I mean it didn’t top Time’s Square or The London Eye but it was nice. He was beside me. So it was what I wanted. I’m currently cuddled up with his beautiful Australian Shepherd that has taken a break from her shenanigans to give me some needed puppy cuddles and I’m thinking about what the next year may hold for me.
I have a lot of goals for the next three hundred and sixty-five days, much like everyone else but it’s not necessarily about change. Things have been going well for the past three years, since my move to Washington and I don’t plan on changing things; just improving them. Building upon them. Expanding them. Don’t misunderstand, I had a lot of challenges in the past year. It wasn’t an easy year but I’m sure they just get more challenging with age, yet I survived.
So I’m still modeling and the goal for that has never been to be splashed across builboards. I’ve actually already achieved my goal with that which was to do it. I have built a great reputation in Washington as a model. I work with boudoir photographers often and I love it. I’ve moved into promo modeling which I also greatly enjoy and simply plan to keep modeling for as long as photographers and companies want to work with me. As that’s established and growing I’m considering tipping my toes back into the world of writing.
I wrote a children’s book several years ago that I’d really like to pursue getting published. I think this year that is something I will really push myself to do. It’s a goal I’ve had for a long time and while I am a published poet, being a published Author has always been a title I’ve dreamed of. I’ve let my fear of rejection, as well as my fear of success, hold me back. If 2018 taught me anything, it was to stop holding back. The right people will support your dreams. The right person will push you to be your best. And the right thing for you will always find you if you’ll stop hiding from it. Be more open to opportunities and you’ll get a lot farther than blindly pushing down one lone path in search of satisfaction. I finally opened myself back up. To life and love. And every step has been a battle but I’ve honestly never been as happy as I am, right now, in this moment. I have my doubts about what the future holds but tomorrow is tomorrow’s concern. I’m living for today. I’m loving right now. Now I just have to keep this positivity for the next three hundred and sixty-five days.
